Ok I think I need to plug the information gap. From being hung up over my ex who cheated on me, to where I am now which is my ex is begging me to come back to him and there's a new guy in the picture.
Well I went out a couple of times with the new guy. He was oh so sweet and loving and seemingly had no commitment issues whatsoever. He would say things that would melt a girls heart like he fantasizes about having me as his wife, he wants me forever, he's always planning our next and next next meetings together and he would be dying to spend time with me.
It was just so refreshing. And such a change from the dark blackness I was in at that time in June. If you recall, it was when my ex was ambivalent about us, and he wasn't sure whether we were meant to be together. And I slowly let the new guy into my heart and that was it really. I broke it off with my ex and although we were still living together, i was emotionally free.
Very quickly things with the neq guy got serious and I was seeing him everyday, and I even went away overnight, and even on a short holiday overseas. We had a fantastic time. All this while I didn't tell my ex what was happening. I also asked him to move back home.
It's been 3 wks since he moved out and I have mixed feelings. For one, the new guy after we came back from the major holiday, decided to end things with his wife. But, he felt so burned from the experience that he told me that he's not sure what future we would have. He basically was just not prepared to make any promises.
And on the other side, my ex was now repentant, apologetic, and begging me to get back with him. He had ended things with the girl or so he claimed and he realized he loved me. He was everything that I had wanted, 3months too late.
So now...I see the new guy maybe 3 times a week and it's sweet and all, but his lack of commitment and the no future comment kind of dialed down my passion for him a little.
With my ex, we talk daily on whatsapp but nothing that really changes things. I still care for him. I just don't know if I want a future with him.
So there you go - two guys, no future.
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